Several years ago I found myself standing on a walkway above a body of protect water looking down at some barramundi fish. They were enjoying a strong invigorating current stirred up by a flow of water toppling over a concrete damn designed to allow water to hurry over its wall after a heavy wet season shower. These barramundi that inhabit the waters of the Northern Territory of Australia are prized game fish. The ones only feet away were huge, may be nearing three foot in length with bulging sides, and I knew all of them to be female with their massive silver scales catching the sunlight. But not all people know of the amazing barramundi and the life changes it goes through underneath its shimmering exterior. Unfortunately not all people feel the need to find out about many wonderful things that are right under their very noses.
Staring into the water below I dreamt and prayed that one day more people would come to realize the similar wonders that hid within all gender variant people [indeed, wonders within all peoples on the planet]; just enough people to help us fight off the dangers and turn the tide of extinction; safe reserved waters far from baited hooks. To one day be seen with aw and wonder. To nurture a desire to preserve us, not only because it is every humans right to be treated with dignity, love and equality, but to be preserved so we can share with society all our stifled talents in a manner free of repulsion, hate and fear. Free of the endless tears, yes, the endless tears.
Over the past few months I had been facing more than the usual challenge of being a man with a female’s body. I had the title of ‘Sister’ given to females in my church and the ever increasing threat of excommunication from my church hung constantly over my head like the dark threatening clouds that literally gathered above me during the oppressive season of the wet. I hung over a railing to continue my observations and accepted the Creator’s unfathomable ways. I knew such meditation would diminish in some large way the relentless grief cradled within my heart and soul waiting patiently for the Almighty to remove it in His own time and way. God knew the barramundi and He therefore sure knew me and the torrents of tears shed by countless other transsexed that would fill amply a body of water just like the one these fish cruised casually within.
I longed to cruise through life in like manner, unhindered and free of the oppression that grew heavier with each passing day. But the reality for a gender-variant human like me was psychological and physical incarceration by humans no more important than me but far more influential. To presented myself as a man either verbally or visually meant being drawn up in a net and injuriously ripped out as apparently inferior in quality, strength of soul, mind and morals and fed to whatever shark happened by. But the barramundi in these safe waters gave me comfort, hope and reassurance. Though I was bruised and battered I was sure He would soon pluck me from the waters that held both seen and unseen dangers. Many years pass for the barramundi to reach its full potential and purpose in life having endured many dangers; not least that being eaten by predators mostly of the human kind. I was determined to endure and stay alive and reach my full potential that was the birth right of any human.
The Creator of all things designed these fish. For the Great Designer there is nothing impossible or unattainable to Him. In his creations He makes us aware of such creative power and the possibilities around us.
So what of the barramundi? It has an interesting life cycle. All barramundi are male in the first few years of their life but when the time is right and they reach an appropriate size at about seven years of age, they change to become female. As males they mate with the larger older females who were once their smaller size and same gender. They have the opportunity to become fathers and mothers.
In the Bible Jesus speaks of sparrows being important to God though of little monetary value; this being the case how much more important are his human children made in the image of himself. Matthew 10:29-31. “Have no fear: YOU are worth more than many sparrows.” Almighty God is neither male nor female and the angels are likewise. Mankind was originally created to be born male or female and a complement to one another. But man showed a desire to be independent from him who so lovingly created us, thus we have come to be born of various shades of gender and have many thorns of the flesh. Genesis 3:17b. …cursed is the ground on your account. In pain you will eat its produce all the days of your life. Romans 8:22 …for we know that all creation keeps on groaning together and being in pain together until now.
As the Creator, Jehovah God is all seeing, all hearing, all feeling and all understanding. He has made some fish that will change their gender for reasons of survival and/or practicality. He has made the hermaphrodite snail and many plants that self pollinate. When a man is born in a woman’s body or a woman in a man’s form and some intersexed our Heavenly Father doesn’t balk in disgust or reel back in amazement. The variability of gender is nothing new to God; there is nothing we can teach or reveal to Him. Our scrambled DNA has borne Him no surprises. Instead, He holds out a hand of love and compassion that few humans can or will do. For Him nothing is impossible to help sustain those He loves despite the roars of many that would devour that which they fear or can’t control; anyone who is different or helpless and vulnerable. Job 42:2 “I have come to know you are able to do all things, and there is no idea that is unattainable to you.” For this reason I will accept the hand of comfort offered me.
Jeremiah 1: 4-10. And the word of Jehovah began to occur to me, saying: 5 “Before I was forming you in the belly I knew you, and before you proceeded to come forth from the womb I sanctified you. Prophet to the nations I made you.” 6 But I said: “Alas, O Sovereign Lord Jehovah! Here I actually do not know how to speak, for I am but a boy.” 7 And Jehovah went on to say to me: “Do not say, ‘I am but a boy.’ But to all those to whom I shall send you, you should go; and everything that I shall command you, you should speak. 8 Do not be afraid because of their faces, for ‘I am with you to deliver you,’ is the utterance of Jehovah.” 9 At that Jehovah thrust his hand out and caused it to touch my mouth. Then Jehovah said to me: “Here I have put my words in your mouth. 10 See, I have commissioned you this day to be over the nations and over the kingdoms, in order to uproot and to pull down and to destroy and to tear down, to build and to plant.”
Father has shown the maligned transsexed the barramundi. He has put within its blue print gender change. Let us observe, know and accept the survival possibilities held out to us. His set time to put matters straight is near. Revelation 21:3-4.God himself with be with them [mankind]…he will wipe out every tear from their eyes… neither will there be mourning…outcry nor pain… for the former things have passed away.
Though we do not have an innate natural ability to change our bodies to align them with the gender of our brains we have available to us hormones and surgeries that our predecessors didn’t. These offer the transsexed transformation and the realization of their need to escape an inconceivable predicament incurred due to the ancestral blunder of Adam and Eve. This escape is not possible for many transsexed presently but will come. And like the barramundi fighting for its very life when hooked we must struggle to break the lines that would kill us. Struggle both for our self and others; unlike the barramundi we have gifts within to help break these deadly lines; two of the greatest gifts given if we ask are courage and wisdom fired by a love of self and others.
Luke 21: 15…for I will give YOU a mouth and wisdom, which all YOUR opposers together will not be able to resist or dispute. Mat 7:7 “keep on asking and it will be given YOU; keep on seeking, and YOU will find: keep on knocking, and it will be opened to YOU. For everyone seeking receives, and everyone seeing finds, and to everyone knocking it will be opened. Indeed, who is the man among YOU whom his son asks for bread – he will not hand him a stone will he? Or, perhaps, he will ask for a fish – he will not hand him a serpent, will he?
‘But you are not fish!!’say those who would have the transsexed condemned to death physically, emotionally and spiritually. No we are not fish. We are more valuable than fish and our survival and happiness more cherished by Him who created us and mourns with us in our time of pain and sorrow. We are children of God and therefore more important than the sparrows in Jesus’ illustration. Does not Father even kept count of the number of hairs upon our head? For the transsexed it is always a time to survive and swim up strong currents of opposition that would have us swept away with the debris down into some unknown body of water to sink to the bottom buried under thick mire. But like the fish, the snails and the plants, our Creator knows our needs more than any man; more than even our own self. Jeremiah. 10:23. It does not belong to man who is walking even to direct his own step. Luke 21 18-19. And yet not a hair of YOUR heads will by any means perish. By endurance on YOUR part YOU will acquire YOUR souls.
We, therefore, knowing the wonderful shades of gender created by the Great Designer on purpose as seen around us, continue to proudly advance against strong currents with strength and determination. Follow, like another admirable creation the salmon, upstream to meet a deadline to spawn and take our rightful place in society as productive individuals with much to contribute if given the opportunity.
We are acceptable whether transitioned like the barramundi or not. We are loved, accepted and cherished by our Father, for we are a product of scrambled DNA or some other influence yet unknown. God doesn’t tread down and destroy the down hearted and crushed in order to please those of mankind who have judged their fellow man. (Isaiah 42:3; 57:15) Judgmental, lack luster humans, who refuse to see beneath skin and fail to realize we all have the same colored blood coasting through our veins and who refuse to peer into the depths of another’s heart, mind and soul; controlled by an unfounded fear that they might be swallowed up by some darkness. Wearing blinkers they are unable to see that one day soon they will be consumed by their own hate and arrogance that they have kept alive by twisting holy writings and, by putting the words of man in the mouth of the Almighty, will come back and eat them up.
1 Samuel 16:7. But Jehovah said to Samuel: “Do not look at his appearance and the height of his stature, for I have rejected him. For not the way man sees [is the way God sees], because mere man sees what appears to the eyes; but as for Jehovah, he sees what the heart is.”
Let those who feel they have a privileged insight into the mind of God not fool themselves. For those placed on high due to their outward appearance are and will be rejected along with those who beat those truly reflecting the personality of Christ and his Heavenly Father. Revilers, slanders, liars, haters and the judgmental are far removed from God.
Our Creator has the exclusive right to regulate our lives and lead us with His spirit of understanding. He is our damn allowing just enough water in and out to prevent the waters of life and knowledge from drying up. We are watered in Father’s due time and nourished with what we need in the right quantities and in the most appropriate way. When we are transformed like the barramundi within safe waters we find peace of mind; when we struggle up that relentless current that would seem to never end we produce life; when we live truth we find love that only a God of love, wisdom and compassion can provide. Psm119:105. Indeed, Father, ‘Your word is a lamp to our feet and a light to our roadway.’
Let no man tell us other wise.
FTM Minister of Jehovah.